I have to admit, the older the kids get, the more responsible they are for getting their own medication in the morning, the harder time I have managing when they are getting close to running out. Then, I'm in a rush to call the doctor's office for refill prescriptions, get them to pharmacy, and get refills before they run out. So, more and more I end up in the drive through line at the pharmacy with one or more of my kids. They're there because they are completely unmedicated. Best bet is to take them with me.
Interestingly enough, my 13 year old son was talking about the experience of being unmedicated as we were on our way to pick up the medication. He said he kind of enjoys being with out medication at first - there's a sort of freedom to his thoughts. He indicated that at first that is a fun feeling - ideas bouncing around in his brain like a hand full of bouncy balls that have been thrown down really hard on the ground. A sense that he's carried by his brain - having no control over where it will take him.
But, he added quickly, there's a relief when he takes his meds. A sense that control is on the way, that soon he'll be able to manage the thoughts running through his mind. He'll at least have some control over what he thinks about and where it will take him. What an odd paradox - the freedom feels good but uncontrollable and therefore a little scary. The control from the medication feels safe but somewhat restrictive.
We were still very much in the "freedom of thought" state when we pulled up to the pharmacy's drive through lane - the one with the vacuum tube that sucks your payment and paper prescriptions up a tube and deposits them in the pharmacy and then sends the medications back the same way. I thought my boys were going to have an aneurism they were so excited.
They wanted to jump out of the car and into the tube themselves. They wanted to take it apart. They wanted to know all about how it worked. They wanted to make a super large one that ran from our house to their father's work and stick him in it every morning to send him off. Dad's 6 foot 3 - he is a big guy. This was an amazing visual that they could not resist. Can you imagine, they mused, somebody's standing at work and wooosh, "Hey, it's Mark. Mark's here!" The sound effects and scenarios filled the car.
But what if he got stuck? Easy, all they needed was a gigantic plunger or maybe a bunch of gigantic plungers. A hatch would open, the gigantic plunging system would fall into place and plunge until daddy was successfully dislodged and sailing through the vacuum tube once more. I was slightly disturbed - they were in heaven.
My next stop was to take my husband his lunch and medication, since he is equally as bad at telling me when he's close to out of meds, great at telling me when he has taken his last day. As he walked up to meet us at the car the boys couldn't contain their excitement - they were talking over each other explaining design and functionality of vacuum tube travel. The sound effects were flying like bullets in a war zone.
What did Mark have to say about all this, "Hmmm, what if you got positioned in the tube wrong. You could get a really horrible wedgie." Well, that was an unexpected answer. The boys loved it. Jaren pointed out that they were not going to stick him in the tube directly - he would be in a pod of sorts, sailing through the tube underground. No atomic vacuum tube wedgies. Mark was not happy about traveling underground. He was totally up for vacuum tube travel as long as he could be up high, have a sense he was flying, and a great view. I passed out the meds and bottled water.
It was time for a little thought management. Freedom of thought is not bad thing. Most of the time it's amusing and certainly adds a lot of humor into our lives. I am sure that many of the world's greatest creations have come from moments just like ours when one thought sparked another until something totally new and revolutionary came to mind and then into existence.
One thing that all of my ADHD/ADDers have pointed out is that medication does not take away their creativity and, believe me, they are an intensely creative group. The minds in our house are full of art to draw, music to compose, inventions to build, films to make, and novels to write. Medication allows them to aim their creativity, to follow through with their thoughts. It allows them to take a concept, have the wherewithal to take out of their mind, and create it in the real world. Not without struggle, but it opens up the potential and makes success plausable.This same son, Hunter, who was talking about his love hate relationship with medication pointed out that one of the hardest aspects of ADHD and its co-occurring conditions is to have such great thoughts. So many thoughts that completing any of them is a struggle. One great thought knocks the other out of the spot light, then that one is knocked by another in never ending bombardment of great ideas. The medication gives him the concentration and focus to further that cascade of brilliance and carefully direct it towards a fabulous end.
Does that mean that those that can't take medication or choose to not take medication are doomed. No. We have a daughter who has recently gone off stimulants. They aggravated her anxiety, impulsiveness, and some other ADHD qualities to that point where what she gained in focus was nothing compared to what she lost to these other symptoms. She would be the first to tell you how hard it has become to direct those brilliant creative thoughts into tangible completed work. She's having to master her brain without the benefit of a stimulant and it is exhausting. It easily one hundred times as hard, but, definitely doable. Especially, since she is aware of the battle that's raging. Trust me when I say she has a lot of, "lost the battle but will still win the war" days.We are still laughing about my big husband, Mark, sailing through the vacuum transportation tube with a wedgie, on his way to work, hoping to avoid getting stuck in the tube, and having to be plunged to continue on his way. We will be for a long time. It's not likely that this particular idea is going to be the one we see to completion - I'm not so sure it should be. But there are many more where that came from, in my house and in houses around the world where these brilliant brains reside.
These are the brains that given the right support, encouragement, and tools will change the world. They will change the way we see it, feel about it, and interact with it. The trick for us as parents, teachers, and caretakers of this unlimited amazing potential is to remember the possibilities, continue to encourage, and direct even when we are exhausted from being up all night because that child has insomnia. Even when your teenage daughter is torturing the cub scouts because she's frustrated and over stimulated. Even when your brilliant child is in danger of failing because they haven't turned in one homework assignment all semester and no one told you until it was almost too late to fix.The trick is to remember and hold onto the knowledge that they are brilliant because of their unique BRAINS not in spite of them.
